Wednesday, March 30, 2011

高橋優 ☆「Yu Takahashi」

He is so awesome and from today, I love his wonderful music



Cool beans :)
It's just so chillaxing ^^
ごめんなさい~I haven't been blogging as much lately. I guess I'm trying to not think about Japan so much.
But, worry not! I shall not abandon my blog :)
And I love it much As when as you guys, my readers<3
Please,Continue you support Cuz' you guys rock :D

さようなら★

Friday, March 25, 2011

Howdy Ho :3

Howdy, everybody :D
So I had an awesome weekend.
Friday: Went to Luna Park for an science school excursion.
My favourite ride was The Flying Saucer. First time, I was so nervous and I was screaming my mouth dry but the second time, I was like "Yeah, brah, just chilling, with my arms crossed, with my guy friends, spinning around parallel to the ground. It's all good" ;D
One of my friends was close to tears on the lamest ride, the Ferris Wheel. Nawwww, she is so cute :3

Yeah, I was in that beast.

The enterance...that is more scary at night.
 Saturday: Went to my friend's birthday party.
That was fun :3
I won a jelly eating comp against two guys and i ran around in a crazy Japanese-ish costume at the mall. I saw some douche bags from school but meh.
Anyways, even though her birthday is already past, Happy Birthday, Rach :3


I. Hate. Flash. But meh.

Sunday: Supposedly-farewell-party-turned-chillaxing-karaoke party
My friends said they enjoyed it and we should have another random party.
I think I did more (crappy) dancing than singing :)
At first, some people were unsatisfied with the song choices because some of my friends like screamo and what not and some friends like Top 40. Well, it was all good in the end :) Awkward for my family+family friends cuz they were all upstairs and when some of them went downstairs for some food, they saw crazy things happen and couples making out hahaha.
Screamo song maybe. 'Chop Suey', probably or Slipknot. I really don't know nor remember


Yeah, I really want to dye my pink hair since I got until probably in August.
But recently, two (maybe 1.5 :P ) people in my school has popped out with pink hair too...so I don't wanna look like I'm just following the trend....I wanted to dye it since hell long ago, so I'll probably throw in some blue or leave some parts blonde or what not.


whatdayyathink?
just the inner lower half of my hair and my fringe.


Anyhoot, I'll best being going now.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Okay, I visited the school counseller and stuff. I was thinking to much in class, my creepy maths teacher came around to my desk three times pestering me to do work and I just cracked and chillaxed outside with my friend. Got 3 periods off of school, chilled and cried with mates, didn't have to do a major essay and I got an awesome rest of the week.
 
What do I have to look forward to...during the time between now and my next departure date:
  • Dyeing Pink or cutting my hair punk-style.
  • Tomorrow's School Luna Park Excursion.
  • My Karaoke Chill Party on Sunday (previously farewell)
  • Possibly getting more ear piercings. ([somehowrelated] i <3 snakebites, they are hot)
  • Maybe going to Animania?
  • Punching my guy friends at school, cuz they can't fight back. >:D
  • Possibly getting a bf cuz the past couple months, I didn't want one due to distance issues.
  • Taking up music lessons-borrow a bass? exercise those vocal chords? my guitar?
  • Actually finish the Alice in Wonderland costume I was trying to make.
  • Finish the pink lacy skirt that I was making.
  • Go to a concert-what one though? Punk? Alternative? Folk?

  
My mum says there might be a chance that I'll go in a couple weeks and she'll work out some other options and alternatives but I don't wanna get my hopes up.
So yeah, I gotta wait possibly 5 days until I have my final desicion.

 
night everyone.
Anybody else, going through similiar situations, i hope you can feel my empathy.
Who ever you are, I love you :)
Just saying.

 

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Facing with an impossible desicion.

To go to Japan for a semester in August or go for a year in 2012, Year 11.
I feel in so much pain and suffering with deciding what to do.
I've been waiting so so so very long to go to Japan. 3 and a half years of waiting.
Then just one week before departure, it's postponed.
Sorry, for being selfish, for caring only for myself but I'm just really broken hearted.
A part of me has died.
When I unpack my case, tell my Japanese teachers,close friends,my friends in Japan, or do anything related to going to Japan on student exchange,
Semester in August:
Pro:
I'll get to go sooner.
It'll be in my year 10.
I won't have to School Certificate properly.

Con:
It is only a semester.
I won't take in as much
I won't learn the language properly.

Year in 2012:
Pro:
I'll be able to take in a lot more.
Learn Japanese properly.

Con:
Leaving Japan unsatisfied.
Possibly repeating year 11.
Graduating later/without my friends.
Risk of driving insane impatiently.
Seems like my mum doesn't want me to do this/trying to convince me to not repeat year 11.

F&$@ my life.(no, I don't care, mum. This is how i feel)

I thought about probably choosing different country, but I can't go without a scholarship and my one is funded by Japanese Government... Or I might try finding a different alternative. Beg for an earlier departure date even.
My tiny brain is going to explode.

When I go to school, I'll talk to a couple teachers tomorrow and see what happens.
I feel just so crap, emo and depressed.
I literally have a headache right now.
Plus, I know, I'll be forced to go to school tomorrow.

Guys, I might try and ignore everything anything Japanese for a while.
Glee could cheered me up for possibly 30mins before I crashed back down again.
In six days, I should have been able to escape the ordinary and let go of everything that I was worrying about for a year. To learn about my favourite country Japan. To have a little me time and find out who I really am. Some people are okay with it, some are really upset.
I'll get over but not anytime soon.

fml.
seriously.
i swear i'll be happier next time I post.
just let me breathe.
I'll list everything that's on the bright side.....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................fuck

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

All that waiting -.-

Well, It's pretty much official.
My departure date is postponed.
I don't know if I'm happy that I won't die quicker than I intend to or I'm disappointed that after waiting for so so long for what's supposed to be 7 days now, it's going to be put back a few weeks.
I was so close but now I feel as though my lollipop has been snatched away before I got to lick.
I'll try to be optimistic and I'll be thankful that it is later not sooner.
Why though?
  • I wish this multiple disasters thing didn't happen.
  • I wish those people didn't die.
  • I wish things could go back to the way it was.
  • I wish that the survivors won't feel guilty and keep that calm attitude that they're bravely showing.
  • I wish that my departure date was originally later so I wouldn't feel as crap now.
  • I wish that the recovery comes quickly and smoothly.
  • I wish I wasn't so selfish right now.
That Governor of Tokyo, Shintaro Ishihara, is such a jerk.
He said...
日本人のアイデンティティーは我欲。
この津波をうまく移用して我欲を1回洗い落とす必要がある。
やっぱり天罰だと思う。

Japanese people's identity is of selfishness. (BS!)
This tsunami has essentially washed away this one time the selfishness skillfully.
Indeed, I think this is divine punishment.
More simply put, I'm a public menace.

What the factorization?
Japanese politician hatin' on Japanese people?
That's really stupid and he shoulda kept his mouth closed.
Just because you are Japanese, doesn't mean you can talk crap about your own race like that, especially in a time like this.
That just makes you an @$$****.
Argh. Excuse my negativity.

Well, at least I'm not restless at night.
I read on facespace that some people are worried because their school thing is screwed. how assignments are late, school exemption, units for High School Certificate (HSC) are all blah, visa expiring and stuff.
Someone said we might go in August (such a bloody long wait) but then again, she is going to Tokyo and that's according to her host mom.
Maybe it's different for Sapporo?
Oh, Who knows.
I gotta wait until tomorrow for updates and possibly new departure date.

I don't wanna die but I hope it's soon.

Just by the way, YAY! I got over 1000 views all time for my blog!

Friday, March 11, 2011

Worry >_<"'



We all know about the tsunami and 8.9 earthquake in Japan.
What's with the disasters lately. There has been just so much :(
We have the Egypt and Libya thing.
The Christchurch earthquake.
The Queensland flood and cyclone.
Now this, in Japan.
Absolute madness.

I hosted two middle school boys,Shuto and Eito (Hachi) from Chuo-ku, Tokyo and I pray that they are okay :/ I only hosted them for a week but they are like my brothers. I miss them a lot and I love to reminisce on the times we spent together. 
Hopefully, I'll be able to convince AFS to let me visit them or ask my host family to come with me. If I go to Tokyo, I might be able to go to Disneyland with them or my school :D

I got my new camera though :)
It's pretty awesome.
As you can see there is a LCD screen on the front so I can take picture of me with friends and the main screen is touch screen!~ I love it :)
By the way, it's pink. I wanted to get black but they ran out so I choose pink.
It's not too bad though, not bad pink. It's a good pink :)

I had my last lesson with my usual Japanese teacher because she will be absent from school for a bit so I thanked her for teaching me today. She is really nice :) I guess I'll see her next year.
I also had my last day of P.d. but who cares?
I wish I had some P.E. before I go though :/
I'm competitive and I can't really be like that at class in Japan.
I don't wanna hurt the girls :P
It's strange being in a all girls private school because I feel as though if I stand out, I'll get pushed back into line plus I can't hang out with guys.
I like to use them as punching bags @_a~ and  they are nice to hug.

Speaking of hugging, If I meet any AFS or other exchange students, I'll greet them with a hug.
I am a hug addict but I don't want scare the Japanese people :P
In fact, here...*cyber-hug*

Had the best hot dog 'Hot Dog De Wheels' ever day! It was epic taste.

I only have like 11 days left, give or take :O
I'm nervous and excited!
The school is going to put me into the newsletter again and I'm going onto the school board :O
The departure date is so close, i feel as though I can just graze it with my fingertips.

Well, Buenas Noches everyone!
Tiff :3

[12/3] I added this video today cuz im not bothered to write a new post. I wanna watch anime, Gosick instead. XD

Thursday, March 10, 2011

@_@

Hey guys,
Do you think I should write blogs more often?
I should really do some videos too~
hmm~~


Well...Today, I got really pissed off >:/
Two rebel guys keep saying "Ni Hao" and/or "Konnichiwa" to me, with the 'Asian praying hands' gesture for a while now and I haven't really cared about it much until this week.
These two guys are in my Geography, History, P.D. aaaand ICT class so I pretty much have to deal with them everyday and this greeting has intensified =_=.
 In class, I always think of ways to punch them without getting in trouble.
 I'm pretty sure my kick ass Geography teacher wouldn't care about it much.
 I gotta make sure he hears it though.
Then today, true reasons unknown two different ultimately douchey guys decided to cough into my hair, on their way out of the bus.
It's was super disgusting and I luckily got to kick one of them.
They are all just a bunch of jerks and I tried really really hard to just ignore it all but
tomorrow, I'm going to the year 10 advisor and hopefully, I'll get some sort of vengeance. ( is that the word?)


Just 12 days left for me :O:O
I'm really nervous that reality will be a bitch and I'm super duper excited ^^
I keep forgetting that I actually still have homework for school in the the midst of it all.

I'm hatin on Science because my brain just doesn't comprehend.
English is alright...if I like the topic like Shakespeare, I'll put more effort into it but 'To Kill An Mocking-Bird" is wayyy to boring. I just sit around in class like a...rock. I get told off by my friends but my brain is just sleepily hibernating~
This will be me until the day I leave :P
Anybody watched The Very Potter Musical?
Did you know Darren Criss as Harry first??
I gotta go now,
goodnight (where I am)
Tiff x

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Presents for Host family

Hey, how ya going :)
I got some presents for my host family now. Not quite finished buying but yeah :P

So I got two eco friendly shopping bags with Australia on it for my host mum,
rubber wrist bands for nobody in particular,
a childrens picture book with pictures of Australian animals and plants for my host bro, 
a video of my life in Australia (school, family, home etc, put on a CD),
Tasmanian Lavender and Leatherwood Soap
T2 tea, Daintree flavour made from all Australian ingredients

There's nothing for my host daddy yet xD
I'm going to some markets to search for some Aussie stuff for him while buying some travel adaptors.

I wanna get this camera~


Samsung PL101 Digital Camera :D

Tata for now
Tiff x

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

New Departure Date >:/

So confuzzling :O
I have been told in November that I was going to leave on the 25th of March, then I was told it was the 23rd on facebook and now apparently my airplane tickets says I'm leaving on the 22nd.
At least it more shorter wait...

I will be going from Sydney to Hong Kong to Japan!
Some how I'm more scared of being in Hong Kong than Japan.
Maybe because I don't want someone to speak Cantonese to me or get lost among all the asians. Then again, Japan is also filled with asians!

Oh em gee~~
Esp. now that my hair has turned from multi-coloured browns and ranga to plain blue black. The blue will eventually fade out but the black will stay :(
Hopefully, I'll be able to whip out my pink hair dye if the school rules aren't so strict but I'm in a private girls school and i'm not sure how to find peroxide to bleach my hair. If I can't find it I'll dye it to a brown at least.


BEFORE
I miss this hair :*|
took the picture in the car :P


AFTER
blah blah black =_=
*dislike* I don't stand out +_+
 *sigh*
When I'm back in Australia, I'm getting more ear piercings and dying it blue+pink+black :) maybe.

Annyoung kaseyo~
that's korean but whatevers :)
Bye